Dancing and Music

Hello! :)


I was randomly looking through some songs, and I realized the most popular are usually songs you can dance to. Everybody I know likes to dance, and are actually good at it. Since I am too lazy for normal P.E., I take dance class (and of course completely suck at it). I can do the exact same movements as everybody else, but I look awkward. It scares me. Why is that so? I would sit back and observe everybody doing it, but then the teacher would scold me.
Dancing is absolutely not my thing. It's unnatural for me. However, I love watching people dance. I even like watching that butt-on-crotch-rubbing dancing most teens do these days. It's not as enjoyable as others, but it amazes me that I cannot even do something as simple as rubbing my lovely posterior on some stranger's boner. I don't mind doing it. Not at all. Of course, I will feel odd (therefore, I shall not do it). But then I see everybody else having so much fun just letting loose. I like watching that part of the dancing. Them expressing themselves, even if it's expressing their arousal of the opposite sex. There are animals that perform dances for their mate, so why can't humans?
Now. The songs. The songs my step-sister listens to are always songs that are meant to be danced to. Naturally, even I feel like dancing to it. Am I able to move to it? No. I just stand there awkwardly trying to let out a single step. Nothing ever comes out. I gave up on dancing, but should I give up on the songs? No, I don't think so. I like songs (that do not include meaningless lyrics about sex, money, and drugs. The topics are alright, but not when there is absolutely no meaning or reason behind it ) even if I am not able to fulfill their purpose. I listen to them to feel things. I don't usually feel many emotions ( I dunno why. I'll probably post about this later... maybe...), so I like to use music. No, I am not some emotionless freak. I just have a limited amount of emotions. The genre don't matter to me at all. A girl I usually talk to said techno/dancing/any songs that are played in raves are all bad and meaningless. I was surprised that she was wrong. Usually, the popular songs teens listen to are. Not all of them are. Sometimes, people don't pay attention to their meaning. Whatever, but I do. I like to find out their meaning. It gives me something to do :)
I would post some songs that have meanings, but I do not feel like it. It's getting late, and I cannot use Youtube right now. Too lazy to get ear phones... even if they are right next to me.


Change of topic:
How do you learn how to dance?
Sure, there are tutorials and classes... but how do you learn to let loose and let the music control your body? I've heard of so many explanations, but how do you really do it? People have different ways and reasons for dancing. I'll have to find out myself. At the rate I'm going I'll probably never find out. It's alright, though. I think...


Anyways, good night all :)
See you tomorrow!