Dancing and Music

Hello! :)


I was randomly looking through some songs, and I realized the most popular are usually songs you can dance to. Everybody I know likes to dance, and are actually good at it. Since I am too lazy for normal P.E., I take dance class (and of course completely suck at it). I can do the exact same movements as everybody else, but I look awkward. It scares me. Why is that so? I would sit back and observe everybody doing it, but then the teacher would scold me.
Dancing is absolutely not my thing. It's unnatural for me. However, I love watching people dance. I even like watching that butt-on-crotch-rubbing dancing most teens do these days. It's not as enjoyable as others, but it amazes me that I cannot even do something as simple as rubbing my lovely posterior on some stranger's boner. I don't mind doing it. Not at all. Of course, I will feel odd (therefore, I shall not do it). But then I see everybody else having so much fun just letting loose. I like watching that part of the dancing. Them expressing themselves, even if it's expressing their arousal of the opposite sex. There are animals that perform dances for their mate, so why can't humans?
Now. The songs. The songs my step-sister listens to are always songs that are meant to be danced to. Naturally, even I feel like dancing to it. Am I able to move to it? No. I just stand there awkwardly trying to let out a single step. Nothing ever comes out. I gave up on dancing, but should I give up on the songs? No, I don't think so. I like songs (that do not include meaningless lyrics about sex, money, and drugs. The topics are alright, but not when there is absolutely no meaning or reason behind it ) even if I am not able to fulfill their purpose. I listen to them to feel things. I don't usually feel many emotions ( I dunno why. I'll probably post about this later... maybe...), so I like to use music. No, I am not some emotionless freak. I just have a limited amount of emotions. The genre don't matter to me at all. A girl I usually talk to said techno/dancing/any songs that are played in raves are all bad and meaningless. I was surprised that she was wrong. Usually, the popular songs teens listen to are. Not all of them are. Sometimes, people don't pay attention to their meaning. Whatever, but I do. I like to find out their meaning. It gives me something to do :)
I would post some songs that have meanings, but I do not feel like it. It's getting late, and I cannot use Youtube right now. Too lazy to get ear phones... even if they are right next to me.


Change of topic:
How do you learn how to dance?
Sure, there are tutorials and classes... but how do you learn to let loose and let the music control your body? I've heard of so many explanations, but how do you really do it? People have different ways and reasons for dancing. I'll have to find out myself. At the rate I'm going I'll probably never find out. It's alright, though. I think...


Anyways, good night all :)
See you tomorrow!

Have you ever wondered?

Hello! :)

Before I begin, I want to explain that this is half introduction/ half REAL first post.

Sometimes, I consider myself to be a sort of mild social outcast. I don't even try to fit in or follow any crowd. I'm not saying people who do that are wrong (I might think it sometimes), but that it's just my thing. Even if I tried, there is just too much to change. Therefore, I remain a bystander. I've realized people have almost forgotten me, as if I wasn't there. Lonely? Yes, but that is not the point. During those times where I am the bystander, I start to think. I am a person who asks many questions originally, but my status as an mildly unattached member of the outcast society allowed me to further indulge in my own questions. I don't waste time asking people because I know I don't need their answers. These questions and things I have wondered accumulate throughout the day, so I decided to document them. I don't mind if no one reads it, or if a million people read it. It doesn't matter to me.

I decided most of the things I will post are the most important questions and their background. However, it's not only limited to that. I will run out of questions. Therefore, every thought of the day will be posted here (Assuming I will post every day). Being the lonely high schooler that I am, I sit during classes and breaks (usually alone because even I like a break from my 'friends') and observe. At that moment, my mind wanders and collects information. Usually, it's boring topics like boyfriends, make up, and 'fitting in' ( this is mainly due to the fact I am collecting data in HIGH SCHOOL, which those are the main topics for girls ). I promise most of the posts are not going to be about that, because then I'd get bored and annoyed and probably hang myself in shame for lack of a brain to find out more.

Am I the only one who has these sorts of thoughts? Probably. I don't mind it though, not because I might consider myself "original" like many other do but because it does not matter. I will try not to be the conceited bastard that I am and post nonstop things about me. BUT I will write about what I think. These are all my opinions, so I will express them. Everybody has the right to wonder. Every single person can ask questions, but it's up to them what questions they will ask.

Wish me luck! :D

Extra Thought for the Day: Re-reading this, I realized it was mostly explaining about me. Am I that lonely? oO

Anyone else think I sound a little like some desperate loner looking for companionship? Anyone else notice how awesome I sound while talking about myself? xD

My first entry!

Hello! :)

This is my first entry in here (No duh!). I have never blogged before, so gimme a moment to get used to this.At this very moment, I am testing out all of the templates and making this journal/diary/blog all nice and pwetty <3 I'll introduce myself and this sort of diary journal. Journal sounds nice...

Warning! At this moment, I am a 15 year old girl. Therefore, do not expect any maturity from me. I am but a young caterpillar yearning for its butterfly wings, which will not be given to me any time soon... Something like that...

Warning (Pt. 2)! I am human, therefore I have weak points. Here are some weaknesses that I have acknowledged: color, names, studying, reading, and understanding people. All of those listed are things I am horrible at. You must be proud; I have graced you with some information of the most dull wonderful me! If you notice any other weakness, I probably have also noticed but choose to remain in denial :D

Warning (Pt. 3)! I may have horrible grammar/spelling and may make up words. Sometimes, these are on purpose and you absolutely should not mind. However, if you would like, you may mind and be all bugged about it and it'll ruin your whole day. I shall then laugh at you.

Oh! I ran out of time. Therefore, you must wait for my next post for the rest of my introduction. I'm a very busy person... (Yes, I know that was a lie. I actually have no life)

Thought for the day: Will anybody be interested in this?